Recently my life has been under a lot of strain and change. Many things have come toppling down in my life and I have been unable to do anything about it. Profound changes and struggles have formed within all aspects of my life, from family, to my local sangha (spiritual group), to my work life. Mostly all relationships that I have had in my life have changed to some extent. The old structures that I have had in my life have come falling down quite rapidly (which was confirmed when the Major Arcana of the Tarot turned up in a Tarot reading a few days ago).
In the chaos I have been trying to make sense of what is actually happening in my reality while also trying to stay sane and keep my feet on the ground. The clear signs have shown me that it is time for me to evolve and change. I have been living in the old structures for too long and they are no longer fitting in with who I am anymore or who I want to be. After I saw that this chaos and turmoil was necessary for my spiritual growth I devotedly went about with my magical and spiritual work: daily invocations, prayers, meditations and offerings with more gusto.
I am observing what will develop and who I will develop into. I have been thinking about the wonderful teachings that magic and other spiritual paths teach. I have been focusing on the truth that there is no god outside of yourself and that we are masters of our own destiny. I have been contemplating that only I know what is really right for me and I should just get on with it and just live and follow my own heart.
Through all of the destruction I have become increasingly inspired and motivated to make changes in my life. I have been visualising the potential future and have a furious drive to get on and get it done. I am no longer hiding my magical life with the rest of my family and friends because it is such a central part of my life. Now I have fully declared to the world that I am a magician! I have liberated myself and started the ball rolling for the development of reality.
I have been making plans for my future self and future life and have started making work that is in line with this.
These struggles show me that all the practices that I have been doing have been working and that I should just go on with great force onwards and upwards to the light.
Life is a series of endless initiations, some small and some massive. I have to accept and carry on because as it says in the book of the law, “All sorrows are as shadows”.
Accept. Be Love. Live.